Re(set) - A collective exhibition, 9-14 May 2016

A few weeks ago, on 9-14 May 2016 at N-Workshop Yogyakarta, I had a collective exhibition together with my lovely friends. The title of the exhibition is Re(set). The theme relates to Self that deals with Other (either symbolic or real). The curator, Mas Hadid, is a very friendly guy who can guide us to make our best concept (even tho I still feel that I'm failing in technical part lol). 10+ artists exhibited their works: Amel, Mas Arya, Mas Budi, Mas Edi, Mas Nanang, Mas Rahmad, Mas Rama, Mas Sony, Nof and me! Mas Iskandar and Pak Koskow later on 3rd/4th day of exhibition displayed their works as well

Honestly, I feel very special during the exhibition because of many reasons :

1. Diyana, a friend of mine from Malaysia came all the way from Kuala Lumpur to help displaying and to visit this exhibition. I still feel sorry cause I didn't give her the best trip like she did when I visited her in KL :(

2. Binar and Ratri, childhood friends from Sumatra, also came to visit. We talked a lot and Ratri even came for drawing together with other participants.

3. I get to exhibit my artworks together with people that I adore!

Here are some photos from the event. Enjoy!

Display team + Diyana! - 8 May 2016

Opening Day - 9 May 2016

Somehow we get to display our works in same room ♥

Book Exchange - 12 May 2016

Ratri. Me, and Binar :3

Mas Hadid, giving a curatorial tour to UIN students - 14 May 2016

Drawing Together Event - 14 May 2016

My favorite work by Amalia Permahani.

I want to say thanks to all people who have supported me, my family, my friends, especially for Mas Arya who always give his words of advice to become a better artist, Mas Rama and Mas Sony for their support and knowledge of technical part, and for Nof who stayed together with me in the last minutes of making the artworks. Love you all!

I will tell you more about my artwork for this exhibition in next post. Ciao!

I am already twenty three

It's been a long time since the last time I post an update.
So many things happened but I will do what I normally do every year : Showing off my birthday presents :D Aaand here they are :

From Mba Maya, really appreciate her time to edit this greeting :*

Another gift from Mba Maya, United Nations binder. Flowers from Mba Ipeh

From Icha, my shopping partner in Bangkok. Will meet up with her on April!

Literally LOLing after Duta send me this creepy greeting :))

Coolest greeting ever, sent from South Korea!

Thanks God for giving me this wonderful life and let me learn to be more grateful each and every day.

And hope I can update this blog again.

'92 Girls #2

This will be a post with a lot of photos and videos :3

Happy New Year 2014!

Last months of 2013 was indeed hard, but here I am, making it to 2014! So many great things happened early in this beautiful new year :) Just like last year and years before, I received lots and lots of love from family and friends.

I finally tell my significant other about how I think and I feel about him, and I could say that he is the greatest gift this year (ahem! :">). He made a cute drawing of me (go follow his instagram, he has a rad collection of drawings!):

And I am so grateful to know Dita, Eki, Icha, and Kak Nikita, spent some time to made these wonderful birthday greetings for me :

A beatiful letter and prayer from Dita, unfortunately, she shared it privately.

This one is also from Dita (it's her usual nature to give me more than one present on my birthday, I just don't know how she can stick out as a friend of forgetful and uncaring human-being like me) :

Dita's and her beautiful friends in Hana Bank. You girls are so beautiful! *kiss one by one*

Maudy Ayunda versi tidak terawat

I miss you too, my shopping mate! :*

My eyebrows are funny because a make up artist trimmed them for a photo-shoot :|

I am even more grateful to know that my friends in Bangkok are caring me :

Joan, Me, and Rima on the day they gave me a really cool present.

I already wanted to buy a suitcase for my art supplies but I didn't have a time to find and buy one. They save me a very good amount of time and energy, thanks, i LOVE this!

My very kind roommate, Mba Zah, gave me a guitar... in a form of flashdisk, or as we say in Thailand, thumbdrive :D And Mba Dati gave me a really cute encouragement to finish my thesis. I will Mba, and I will do it really soon :)

Actually, there's another present but it's still in the laundry basket. It's a purple clothes from Brina, the cool girl on the block. Haha, thanks, Brin!

My family gave me a skype birthday party! Dang, why are they having a party when I'm not even there?

They already cut and ate the cake. Without me.

One of my favorite singer was forgetting my birthday, I was kinda sad. LOLJK. I know he was having a test for the sake of continuation of his life, I won't even mad if he completely forgot. Well maybe a little. (Disclaimer  :  for all of eco-lover out there, don't worry, this guy were reusing used paper and have the intention the reuse it again.)

And as I promised in my previous post, here I present the video that Cinan and her other-half, Houman, made for me, you will see why there's no way I could top their video :

For a very personal reason, this video defines pure happiness to me. Thank you very much, cutest and smartest couple I've ever met :)

I want to thank you all and I want to thank Allah as well, Alhamdulillah :)

Maybe it's a bit early to say this

Kalau suatu saat nanti kamu bosan sama aku, semoga bukan karena :
aku sering ngambek karena hal-hal kecil
aku sering mengeluh
aku jarang mandi dan keramas
aku sering mengucapkan kata-kata kasar
aku kurus dan hitam dan sering sakit
aku terlalu banyak bermimpi tanpa beraksi
aku terlalu banyak meminta
seperti kali ini aku akan meminta, meminta kamu supaya jangan bosan sama aku.

Sudah itu saja.

Tteokbokki, Ddeokbokki, Topokki or Dukbokki, you name it, I WANT IT.

But topokki are so expensive in Thailand :( So I uploaded this video of WEBG featuring Rendra practicing Dengarkan Curhatku by Vierra with korean lyrics translated by Dita instead (I know, there's no relation between that). Prepare for the glorious ending (by that I mean we failed :p ).

It was a long time ago, circa October 2012

<sub>Black Giraffe


White Elephant


Om Rendra</sub>

Où que tu sois, je veux être coquine avec toi

Où que tu sois, je veux être coquine avec toi
water with color and ink on watercolor paper

I still like giraffe and I am in the search for it
By the way, I draw this while listening to this:

Gotta love the beat and smile to the lyrics

The Greatest Debate of My Mind in 2012. So Far.

In the end of August, a really weird feeling struck my mind, asking whether i have to keep or to drop the thesis credits that i already bravely took 3 days ago. Most of my friends are not taking thesis credits this semester, they said they are going to take them next semester. I consulted with administrator in my department and she said it is better to take them next semester. Shoot! She then suggested me to consult with my thesis supervisor. I texted her and while I was waiting the reply I doodled and this is the result of the consultation with her.

This picture tells that if I want to graduate in February 2013, I have roughly 4 months to do my thesis and to pass it I have to do the final exam in mid-january 2013! Why did I say roughly? As I still having another project in this semester, such as helping my lecturer's research, pkm's business, and collaboration exhibition, I couldn't devote myself only to do my thesis.

Then I consulted with my friends. Most of them said that I should keep them. I even made pros and cons list, considering what's good and bad from each choice. I have been spending all day feeling uncertain and indecisive. But then I realized that I have my own character. I won't start if I have no deadline! If I take thesis credit next semester, maybe this whole thing will strike me again! So I try to calm my mind and said to myself:

"YOU CAN CERTAINLY DO THESIS THIS SEMESTER, YOUNG LADY!"

P.S It also occurs to me that sooner I begin, the further my chances to be bald. Cinant and I have a pact: If we haven't graduated yet until the last period of graduation in 2013, we have to cut our hair out and be bald. And after that we have to go to beauty salon and ask for a creambath. Imagining that scenario always make me cringe! I really have to graduate soon :D

P.P.S On unrelated topic: It was really a shame, but it turned out that I 'forgot' how to use a dayyum scanner since i never use it for like 4 or 5 months, took me 5 times to get decent quality of picture above :D

Ingat, Dam!

Ingat, Dam!
Kamu itu beruntung
Jadi kamu harus selalu bersyukur

Ingat, Dam!
Papah, Mamah, Mas Yoga, dan Mbak Kiki ada di rumah bukan untuk melihat wajah lemahmu
Jadi tetaplah kuat dan jadikan mereka sebagai semangatmu

Ingat, Dam!
Di umur 20 tahun dan masih bergantung pada orang tua itu memalukan
Jadi turutilah apa yang orang tuamu katakan, kamu berhutang sangat banyak pada mereka

Ingat, Dam!
Kamu itu manusia
Jadi jangan paksa dirimu melakukan hal-hal yang memang tidak bisa kamu lakukan

Ingat, Dam!
Kamu sudah berani berbuat dan memulai sesuatu
Jadi kamu harus bertanggung jawab dan akhirilah sesuatu itu dengan baik

Ingat, Dam!
Kamu itu punya teman yang akan selalu ada di saat kamu susah ataupun senang
Jadi jangan merasa kamu tidak memiliki siapa-siapa

Ingat, Dam!
Teman-temanmu itu juga punya masalah
Jadi daripada kamu berkeluh kesah dengan mereka lebih baik kamu berbagi kesenangan dengan mereka

Ingat, Dam!
Masih banyak orang yang memiliki masalah lebih besar dari kamu
Jadi, kamu sama sekali tidak pantas untuk mengeluh

Ingat, Dam!
Banyak hal yang harus diingat
Jadi berusahalah untuk tidak melupakannya

May


was


FIERCE!

I had plenty things to do.
I only shower once a day in May. Or maybe once every two days.
Some things turned me down, but in the end of the month, somehow, my mood boosted up :)

I will soon post things that happened in May.
And I hope June treats me well *crossfinger*

Some Stupid Things I've Done

Setelah melakukan kebiasaan bulanan saya yaitu mengunjungi orang-orang yang shouted di shoutbox, mengunjungi blog yang saya link di blog ini, mengunjungi orang-orang yang follow saya, dan mengunjungi blog yang saya follow, akhirnya saya ketahui bahwa ternyata saya dapat award :D

Blogger Award from Candella


How long have you been blogging?
Kalo yang beneran ngeblog sih udah 1,5 tahunan lah

When did the first time you blog?
Jaman SMP which is 4-5 years ago. Itu jaman masih BERUSAHA EMO HAKHAKHAK (dan berakhir jadi alay gitu deh)

What is your purpose in making blog?
PAMER! Haha :D Pengen punya tempat untuk bisa menampilkan gambar dan fotofoto dan apapun yang saya sukai atau yang sedang saya pikirkan, karena saya ini aslinya pemalu, jadi suka susah ngungkapin perasaan

Who inspired you so that your blog becoming like now?
Mmm banyak sih, tapi yang paling ngaruh tuh blognya Mas Tampan Destawan! Dia salah satu orang yang bikin saya makin tertarik sama art.

Sebelum ini saya juga pernah dapet award: Stylish Blogger Award from Anne

A. thank and link to the person who awarded me this award
terimakasih ibu rumah tangga yang paling ajaib sedunia yang pernah saya temukan hingga tulisan ini dibuat! beliau adalah madame Anne Kule! *applause*

B. share 8 things about myself

1. saya susah mengungkapkan perasaan dan sifat saya ini sering ngebikin susah saya sendiri (dan orang lain kayaknya) *curhat*
2. pernah sengaja nyelupin hape ke dalem air biar dibeliin hp baru, hasilnya? uang tabungan saya sendiri habis untuk beli hape baru HAHAHAHAHA BODOOOOOHHHNYAAAAAAA
3. kalo udah betah di dalem rumah, mau sampe mamah ngerayu-rayu nyuruh saya keluar beli sesuatu, saya tetep keukeuh dengan pendirian, EMOH! Pernah kapan yah sampe marahan sama mamah *durhaka yeeee*
4. pernah ngefitnah kakak sendiri di depan guru saya
5. rasanya saya banyak dosa karena sering mendzalimi kakak saya baik verbal maupun fisik
   
6. agak-agak bolot (beneran deh, saya suka hah heh hoh kalo lagi ngobrol di tempat yang ngga sunyi)
7. tidak dapat menikmati film thriller
   
8. hingga tulisan ini dibuat, saya belum pernah makan magnum

Dan Award Friends from Luthfi

TERIMAKASIH YAH CEMAN-CEMANSS!

mandi ngga mandi yang penting record

This song dedicated to all my friend hope we can be friends ( i won't ask us to be friends forever or best friend forever, coz you know, it's a hard thing to do and i don't think i could manage kinda thing, i admit, i am a semi-anti-social [hahaha what the heck is that]). Especially for Jeep, Conrad, Simone (as well for Simone-Simeon), Mas Gin (a design-mad), and Mas Wantek (a giraffe-lover) HAHA! I often hang out with them lately. J'AIME GIRAFE AUSSI!

KEMON LETS SING ELONG!
Anyone Else But You - The Moldy Peaches
with a lyrics change and reduction :D

You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The giraffe on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du

I will find my nitch in your car
With my mp3 DVD rumple-packed guitar
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Up up down down left right left right B A start
Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, I want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du
But you

current status

dari ini --> klik klik klik

jadi ini
ga banyak sih bedanya, makin jelek malah
belum pake scanner juga haha

mau bikin video tapi saya lagi batuk, jadi suara serak dan kadang tercekat gituuu
mau upload video yang lama, kok pas diliat lagi ga ada yang bener

apa lagi yah

oh saya capek
jadi moodswing gitu
kayak orang sinting
yaudah sih

malu

aku kembali lalai

mana semangatku dulu?

featured by GIN-GIN

JE SUIS CONTENT!
Two days ago, when i checked my last.fm account, i read a new shout from my new friend in last.fm, Mas Gin-gin or known as killtody

HE MADE A POST IN HIS BLOG ABOUT MOI! I think this is the first time someone featured me (cmiiw). He also drew me, God! I'm so flattered :"> I mean, we're just acquainted like less than a week, but he already put me in the top of admiration!

this is one of his drawing, click to see his post :)

Well, his post is kinda overrated, i think HAHA
especially about the university thing
actually, im the one who should be jealous
HE IS STUDYING AT Institut Seni Indonesia!
Seriously, saya ingin sekali masuk ISI, tapi saya sadar, kemampuan saya ngga sebegitu hebatnya buat masuk ISI
And the fact that he is a graphic designer has made me more jealous!
But everyone has his own good-at, right?

Merci beaucoup, Mas Gin-gin, semoga anda sukses dan sehat selalu serta selalu berada di dalam perlindungan Allah *tighthug*

FOR YOU, YES YOU! Check his tumblr immediately, NOW! GO, GO, GO!
Arif ginanjar Diary Book.

lubang hidung saya besar

jadi saya mudah bernafas

my nose's holes are big
so i can easily breath



NEVERMIND!

NEW COVER VIDEO! YEAH!



Lykke Li - Dance Dance Dance (Cover By Damar R)
again i made so many mistakes and my voice ISNT getting better HAHA
oh and i think my ukulele a lil bit pitchy or out of tune (im not sure)
i cant tune it (haha pemain macam apa itu, nyetem ukulelenya sendiri aja gabisa)
my pronounciation is wobbly :D :D

humiliating myself

Lemme introduce my newest family member : JEEP, the ukulele
and and i cut my hair :D :D :D


my voice is unenjoyable HAHA -_-
but i dont care
LET'S SING ALONG!

YOU AND I - INGRID MICHAELSON
don't you worry, there my honey
we might not have any money
but we've got our love to pay the bills
maybe I think you're cute and funny,
maybe I wanna do what bunnies do with you,
if you know what I mean

Oh, let's get rich and buy our parents homes in the South of France
let's get rich and give everybody nice sweaters and teach them how to dance
let's get rich and build our house on a mountain making everybody look like ants
from way up there, you and I, you and I

well you might be a bit confused
and you might be a little bit bruised
but baby how we spoon like no one else
so I will help you read those books
if you will soothe my worried looks
and we will put the lonesome on the shelf

***

i really love this song! dedicated to all people i love *kiss* *hug*

capek, bosen

iya, saya mengakui pernyataan yang mengatakan saya terlalu cuek

iya, saya tidak suka kalau disuruh-suruh

iya, saya sering pulang malam

iya, saya sering lupa sholat kalau sudah main di luar rumah

iya, saya sering mengabaikan perkataan orang-orang

tapi kalau ngga suka sama kelakuan dan sifat saya
jangan salahkan teman-teman saya dong
jangan menuduh hal yang belum tentu benar terhadap teman-teman saya dong
kalau mau menyalahkan, salahkan saya
kalau mau menuduh, tuduh saya
kan sudah jelas semua salah saya
saya sendiri yang ngga sadar diri

jeduar!

untung saya cuek (menurut penilaian orang lain), kalau tidak, saya sudah meledak.

kemarin maaf,
hari ini sudah diulang lagi

ya saya juga bisa kayak gitu

saya ulang lagi
untung saya cuek

AH, I ♥ U MOM! AYO HUJAN-HUJANAN LAGI!
(p.s. you are so much better when im the only child at home, why?)

really emo

I AM A BROKEN HEARTED GIRL NOW :(

NOW I REALIZE THAT NOT ONLY BOY WHO CAN MAKE MY HEART BREAKS :(

i have to stop this

I'm a procrastinator. I postpone everything. Assignment from school, college, people's requests, everything. I don't know why, but i like doing that assignment near to the deadline. When I was in highschool, I used to do my assignment the night before that work have to be submitted. I know, that's not a good habit, but it feels, mmm, I don't know what it is, the thing is i like when i my adrenaline boosts. My mom and my sister said, 'you don't sleep because you doing the assignment, right? you have to submit it tomorrow, eh? i see you just relaxing and playing, why don't you do it days before? how if the lights off or our printer out of ink?'. It sucks. But I know they're right.

I realize that procrastinate is not a good thing. I want to change. Well, honestly, I've tried to change my lifestyle, but it only work for like three days and I just stick back to my habit. Sometimes I think it really horrifying to live life like this, always delay everything, you know what, I even delay don't do the prayer. What a shame :(

I don't know when God will take away my life
,but why I still ignore God?

I'm moslem. I don't wear hijab (I seriously don't know when will i wear it for ever). I seldom do the prayer. There's totally something wrong with me. This is disease. I have to get rid of this disease. I surely don't want to go to the place called hell. BIG NO! Unfortunately, everytime i think of leaving my procrastinating habit, i always think, 'Ok, I'll start tomorrow'. Miserable.

do you ever feel like this?

conceptual self-portrait canon eos 500d photoshop

ignored
nobody care
without any reason
so i start fading away
you didnt recognize me anymore
and i just can draw a smile in my face